Hola Amigosss
Feels like a year since I posted something on my blog
Nothing special happen these days
Hmmm, wanna share something.
I once really sure that I have no more feelings for him, that means I'm not long for him anymore. But tht feelings suddenly came, the feelings that I'm afraid of. And I realize that deep down in my heart I still long for him. I know we're impossible. God told me that. But I miss the old us, miss the way he smile, he talk, he laugh, his silly face, I miss him sooo much. Every single tear I cry, every time I pray for him, I fell that they're all worthless. I know that he never even think about me, even just for 1 second.
But God told me to stay strong, and I'll try my hardest, honestly I need to share this with someone, but I don't know who to share with. I feel afraid, even I know I need someone to calm me down. So I made up my mind that I will only share this with God.
Know what, I have a great spiritual family, I thanked God for his great plans in my life, for let me know those amazing people, and be a part of them.
I'm a human, I'm not perfect, I could make mistakes all the time, but every time when I make mistakes, its like God reminds me. I wanna be close to God, I don't wanna be far away from Him.
Hmmm, I guess there's nobody read my blog.
Hmmm, for somebody there. One thing that you should know. Maybe ppl think tht I'm insane, crazy, silly or anything else. But I really care of you. And I miss you.
And there was someone that asked me if I choose to take PAW as my church service is because of you. But its wrong. I choose it because I want to be closer to God. And I think God asked me to take tht.
that's all I guess thanks for anyone that spend their time to read my blog. :)
Love you guyss
God bless you
=HUGS&KISSES=
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
What a Wonderful World :)
Holaaa~
I thanked God for today.
Guess what, my mom bought a Galaxy Note for me!!!!!
I thinks tht galaxy note is quite cool, but its hard for me to operate it.
I don't really understand how does the system work.
Try to verify my e-mail so I cold download apps from my gnote.
But my PC is broken!!
So I asked some of my friend to help me out, most of them can't help me, but its okay.
Until I opened twitter from my blackberry I saw one of my friend, than I thought, ahaaaaa, why don't I ask him to help me.
Guess what, I found the right guy B) ahahahahah *bit over
And nowww, I could download all of the free apps from my gnote!!!
Idk why, suddenly I miss God presence, so I made up my self to read bible, after I read tht I feel something diferent. I found a paragraph in bible that impressed me
Matthew 21:22
"And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive"
Its 2.30am here. And I still can't sleep yet, I didn't sleep yesterday, so I thought maybe I could sleep really well tonight. Well, but its beyond of my expectation :D
So I decided to go out at 6 am, to help my grandma's younger sister.
She opened a restaurant that sells breakfasts , A.K.A "kopitiam"
I don't help a lot anyway, I just walking around, and my mom said that I just "bikin semak" --"
So maybe I'll have sop buntut as my lunch today, soto as my breakfast. And I haven't decided what will I have for my dinner. May be I'll eat "cha pui"
Hehehehe.....
So I just write until here, its not because I get sleepy but I just don't know what to write anymore...
See ya in next post :*
God Bless You ;)
=HUGS&KISSES=
I thanked God for today.
Guess what, my mom bought a Galaxy Note for me!!!!!
I thinks tht galaxy note is quite cool, but its hard for me to operate it.
I don't really understand how does the system work.
Try to verify my e-mail so I cold download apps from my gnote.
But my PC is broken!!
So I asked some of my friend to help me out, most of them can't help me, but its okay.
Until I opened twitter from my blackberry I saw one of my friend, than I thought, ahaaaaa, why don't I ask him to help me.
Guess what, I found the right guy B) ahahahahah *bit over
And nowww, I could download all of the free apps from my gnote!!!
Idk why, suddenly I miss God presence, so I made up my self to read bible, after I read tht I feel something diferent. I found a paragraph in bible that impressed me
Matthew 21:22
"And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive"
Its 2.30am here. And I still can't sleep yet, I didn't sleep yesterday, so I thought maybe I could sleep really well tonight. Well, but its beyond of my expectation :D
So I decided to go out at 6 am, to help my grandma's younger sister.
She opened a restaurant that sells breakfasts , A.K.A "kopitiam"
I don't help a lot anyway, I just walking around, and my mom said that I just "bikin semak" --"
So maybe I'll have sop buntut as my lunch today, soto as my breakfast. And I haven't decided what will I have for my dinner. May be I'll eat "cha pui"
Hehehehe.....
So I just write until here, its not because I get sleepy but I just don't know what to write anymore...
See ya in next post :*
God Bless You ;)
=HUGS&KISSES=
Monday, July 9, 2012
My Mom, My Super Hero♥
Bonjourrr ~
Feel so guilty, I forgot to bring my mom's medicine.!!!!
my mom said tht it was okay, but I just can't forgive my self!! How could I forget it.
My mom condition is not really good since car accident last 2 weeks. She got her lips sewn. She got 10 stitches on her lips. But she is muchh muchh better now, Praise the Lord.
Want to tell y'all abt my mom.
I love her sooo much. More than anything and anyone in this cruel little world. ;)
My mom is my super hero, I guess y'all think the same thing abt your mom right.??She never complained, always try to make us happy, she is kind , wise and always there when I need her, never stop working even she is sick, she just try to give us the better life. Even I think tht out life is quite good now.
Once when I was in elementary school, it was a heavy rain. There is no one in our home. Its like just me , mom, and 2bros. I was still a kid tht time. So I don't understand stuffs. I told my mom tht I'm hungry, but no food at all. So my mom asked me what I want to eat. And I told her. And then she went out to bought me some foods to eat with an umbrella with her. When I think abt it now I feel so guilty. How could I being so selfish.
Once, there was a school task ( haven't moved to medan yet) and the teacher told us to bring any kind of plant with a COMPLETE condition. So it must be with the root right? And I asked my mom to find it. And when I woke up I asked my mom where is the plant and than my mom show me a kind of plant, I don't know what is that, but the most important thing is tht plan is in WITHOUT ROOT condition. I got mad, and I shouted to my mom "why are you so stupid!! ". I saw my mom's face changed. And I just kept silent back to my room and have a shower.
See?? What I've done to my dearest mom.
I still couldn't forget it until now.
Regrets always come later, so as long as your mom still alive , love her, respect her , treat her better, and always be the child that she want you to be. Don't ever hurt or disappoint you. Remember when she was pregnant, and you were in her stomach like 9months! You know how hurt, tired, painful it is? And she never complained. So just try to do your best to make your mom happy.
God bless you.
Ciaoooo~
=HUGS&KISSES=
Feel so guilty, I forgot to bring my mom's medicine.!!!!
my mom said tht it was okay, but I just can't forgive my self!! How could I forget it.
My mom condition is not really good since car accident last 2 weeks. She got her lips sewn. She got 10 stitches on her lips. But she is muchh muchh better now, Praise the Lord.
Want to tell y'all abt my mom.
I love her sooo much. More than anything and anyone in this cruel little world. ;)
My mom is my super hero, I guess y'all think the same thing abt your mom right.??She never complained, always try to make us happy, she is kind , wise and always there when I need her, never stop working even she is sick, she just try to give us the better life. Even I think tht out life is quite good now.
Once when I was in elementary school, it was a heavy rain. There is no one in our home. Its like just me , mom, and 2bros. I was still a kid tht time. So I don't understand stuffs. I told my mom tht I'm hungry, but no food at all. So my mom asked me what I want to eat. And I told her. And then she went out to bought me some foods to eat with an umbrella with her. When I think abt it now I feel so guilty. How could I being so selfish.
Once, there was a school task ( haven't moved to medan yet) and the teacher told us to bring any kind of plant with a COMPLETE condition. So it must be with the root right? And I asked my mom to find it. And when I woke up I asked my mom where is the plant and than my mom show me a kind of plant, I don't know what is that, but the most important thing is tht plan is in WITHOUT ROOT condition. I got mad, and I shouted to my mom "why are you so stupid!! ". I saw my mom's face changed. And I just kept silent back to my room and have a shower.
See?? What I've done to my dearest mom.
I still couldn't forget it until now.
Regrets always come later, so as long as your mom still alive , love her, respect her , treat her better, and always be the child that she want you to be. Don't ever hurt or disappoint you. Remember when she was pregnant, and you were in her stomach like 9months! You know how hurt, tired, painful it is? And she never complained. So just try to do your best to make your mom happy.
God bless you.
Ciaoooo~
=HUGS&KISSES=
Shout My Heart Out!!
Holaa guys,
Don't know how to start.
Ummmm, I'm still normal, so its not my fault if I'm falling for someone.
But we will never be together, the word tht can describe us is 'impossible'.
I've been thinking of him, I've tried to move on, try to forget him. But the more and more I tried to ignore him, the memories tht he gave to me could suddenly appear. So how I supposed to forget??
I know it just a process, and try to be mooreeee grown up, and think maturely, I know God will always be with me. So I just ignore and ignore even it hurts and sooo hard.
One of my leader said. Love your process, and keep growing. I love my leaders sooo much. They just like my second mommies. And y'all know how much I love my mom.
Sometimes you can't get what you want. You may feel sad, disappoint, upset, but one thing that you should know. God have planned a better future for you.
Keep growing in God.
God Bless you =))
=HUGS&KiSSES=
Don't know how to start.
Ummmm, I'm still normal, so its not my fault if I'm falling for someone.
But we will never be together, the word tht can describe us is 'impossible'.
I've been thinking of him, I've tried to move on, try to forget him. But the more and more I tried to ignore him, the memories tht he gave to me could suddenly appear. So how I supposed to forget??
I know it just a process, and try to be mooreeee grown up, and think maturely, I know God will always be with me. So I just ignore and ignore even it hurts and sooo hard.
One of my leader said. Love your process, and keep growing. I love my leaders sooo much. They just like my second mommies. And y'all know how much I love my mom.
Sometimes you can't get what you want. You may feel sad, disappoint, upset, but one thing that you should know. God have planned a better future for you.
Keep growing in God.
God Bless you =))
=HUGS&KiSSES=
Sunday, July 8, 2012
unforgetable moment part 4
I guess i just write until here.
I MUST wake up 'earlier' tomorrow.
My mom promised me tht she'll get me a galaxy note tomorrow.
Hope she didn't just blow me. --"
Kayyyyy
Bye, :*
=HUGS&KISSES=
unforgetable moment part 3
Cont...
There a some good and bad things here (Langsa)
Good things are could eat delicious foods made by my grandma here, read comics, wake up late!!!
Hahha.
Bad things are yaaa even sleep late all day but should pretend like sleep already. and wait until my granda sure tht I am asleep. then she'll sleep.and I will goo online. (I'm suffer hre you know), no friends here. all of them moved already.
Cont...
Unforgetable moment part 2
Cont..
And I could sing the song perfectly.
Even misses some part.
But i passed!!!!
Until now still hrd to believe tht could do tht curch service.
But i should pass MSJ nd few days of training.
aaaa! me just wait anymore.
I can't attend the first day of training cause my mom ask me to ga home.
And now here i am. in a part of ACEH. a small, warm town 'Langsa'
Cont..
And I could sing the song perfectly.
Even misses some part.
But i passed!!!!
Until now still hrd to believe tht could do tht curch service.
But i should pass MSJ nd few days of training.
aaaa! me just wait anymore.
I can't attend the first day of training cause my mom ask me to ga home.
And now here i am. in a part of ACEH. a small, warm town 'Langsa'
Cont..
unforgetable moment part 1
holaaaa!!!
Its been a while since last time posted something on my blog. =))
Y ll know what??
I was so afraid on the day before my Praise and Worship audition.
I lossttt my VOICE!!
I couldn't sleep cause i'm worry about the audition.
On the next day, I'm still worry bout my voice.
But maybe its a miracle, when entered the audition room,
Somehow felt like a got extra power (too much Drama) cont...
Its been a while since last time posted something on my blog. =))
Y ll know what??
I was so afraid on the day before my Praise and Worship audition.
I lossttt my VOICE!!
I couldn't sleep cause i'm worry about the audition.
On the next day, I'm still worry bout my voice.
But maybe its a miracle, when entered the audition room,
Somehow felt like a got extra power (too much Drama) cont...
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