Move On??

Holaaaaa.... :* :*

Been listening to a song by David choi 'That girl' I love this song so much. Gonna share the lyric to y'all. But because I'm a girl so I'm gonna change the title to 'That boy'

Here's the lyrics:

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No friday movie nights
Or romantic candle light

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say

I don't need that boy by my side
I don't need that boy in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold him when he cries

I don't want to say he's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tel him that
I love him more than life
More than life, yeah
Love him more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Honestly, this won't do
How is he doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say
I don't need that boy by my side
I don't need that boy in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold him when he cries

I don't want to say he's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tel him that
I love him more than life
More than life, yeah
Love him more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that boy by my side
I don't need that boy in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold him when he cries

I don't want to say he's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tel him that
I love him more than life
More than life, yeah
Love him more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

That's all. Such a great song, so catchy. I love it. Especially the lyric. The lyric just sooo deep.
Y'all know what? Honestly I decided to give up and move on. But I always failed. Now I made up my mind to move on. I don't know how long I can resist it. I'll just hold on till the end.

Hmmm, I know I posted unimportant things. Its because I have no one to share with, no one to trust. So I hope it'll be okay if I posted about my feelings here. :D

That's all for today will have my accountancy exam tomorrow. So I should study and sleep earlier today.

See yaaaaaa ;))

God Bless You



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No One Will Understand

Hi. :)

Not feeling so well these days.
I'm sick and I should take care of myself, because I'm not with my parents and I live alone here. I got a headache and a kind of fever. Just need some rest.

And I've been so gloomy. Got problems. Its about my feelings. I think that they are just so unfair. They told me to forget all of my feelings for him. But when someone in my group fall in love, they still allowed him. He even put his crush face on his wallpaper. And our leader saw it, she just act like nothing. What was that mean?? Why I can't normally fall in love with someone just like the other. Is fall in love forbidden for me? Why I can't just love someone?

And I feel so alone these days. I feel so far away from family. No one to rely on. I feel that I'm kinda useless. They never involve me in their activity. I feel like I'm the only stranger there. They have so many secrets that never let me know. They told me that they'll make me feel like they are my second family, my second mother. But I just feel like a stupid stranger.

I've tried so long, I've tried so hard to stay strong. But I can't stand it anymore. I'm tired of everything. They make me feel that my self full of hate. I once decided to quit. But I'm telling my self that I must stay strong even I'm useless, nobody likes me, no body needs me. But now, I can't stand it anymore. I really want to quit. All of them make me feel like a stupid stranger around people that busy with themselves. I don't feel like I'm around my family like they told me before.

For whoever read this, don't ever think bad about me, cause you will agree with me if you get the same problem with me. And if I'm too selfish about my own opinion I'm sorry

That's all

Thanks for reading my useless post. :)

God bless you



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Fall Deeper

Holaaaaa :*

I made lots of mistakes these days and I'm trying so hard to fix them. Its just soooo hard.

Hmmmm, I planned to hang out with my classmate on wednesday, its because two of them, my twins friend is going to Singapore for their college. Gonna miss them so much, they are soooo cute, lovable, funny, and they are sooo good. 

Hmmm, for someone there I keep telling myself that these feelings will pass, but every time I hear your voice or see your face, I fall even harder for you. Its just so hard to move on.

Hmmm, I just write till here

Just wanna say good bye to my dearest friends Vivi and Vida, good luck for you there, gonna miss you. :( 

Its 12.30am here, and I'm going to sleep cause I should go to school tomorrow, the hardest challenge for tomorrow is wake up in the morning. I failed several times. --" and I don't wanna be late to school anymore so I should sleep now.

God bless you

♥♥♥♥♥

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